Those words that you said..it fucking hurt my heart badly. You made me question myself. But even after that, I put my heart out there in front of you, because I like you a lot. And because of my feelings for you, I cried over it. First time ever. The things you said you thought about, I thought the exact opposite throughout our time together. I guess it wasn't the same for you.

I don't want to go back to school :'(

Chionging my 5 essays and 4 compres in 2 days, plan to finish all tonight. Can die thinking of all the shit to write sia.

Have not started on my tutorials fuck, and math and chem revision packages. Cse homework as well, not to mention studying for MSA!!!!!!!!!

DIEDIEDIE. ALWAYS LAST MIN.

Phuture SUCKED BALLS last night. The DJ kept playing those ulu R&B songs and there were only a few nice songs. And the dancefloor was so frikin packed i cldnt even put my arms down. Fion and I were so fed up we just zaoed at 145 like that. Massive amounts of CJ and SA people were there too. I think Powerhouse is the best for me man. The music.. fwahhhh shiok sia. Plus there's always enough space to dance.

The best part. I saw my PE tch Mr Ong outside Velvet I was like 0_0 then said hi to him ahaha!

Some gross dude pm me this

hi, sohc76 here. Dropping a msg nt js nt simply greeting but js let u know

more abt u so i can look forward to see more from you if u dont mind, 23M here staying west area.
Dont own much qualification because i don own book brain. i oso a ex-convicted(jailbird),
by indicating all this are necessary to me cos i do not wish to hide anything, rather to
let u know what kind of ppl i am dan running ard the bush. =D

take care..

RUNNING ARD THE BUSH HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH. HAHAHA! I bao when i saw that sia.

YES tmr legal alr. no more fake id. Huat ah!

Wahlao yest night I was gg to Joo Chiat and I was on 985 gg by PIE. I sat at the front seat and it's like INFESTED WITH GERMS or sth. Aft awhile my thighs underneath developed an itch at some spots. Then the itch ballooned into huge itchy bumps. FUCKING DIRTY SEAT. Cb sia I was walking around with two effing huge lumps underneath my thighs k. And now it's still there and it's still itchy. I kenna some bacterial skin infection I think. Must be someone dirty left the germs on that seat. I'm not leaving the house till it subsides man.

Bai it's 12.20 pm and I have not slept since yest.

Promos ended on 30th Sept and it's alr 6 Nov. 1 mth plus has passed and I'd rotted it away. Except for the three compulsory H2 papers and a few qns of integration, I've done NOTHING. I wasted all this time using the com, watching tv, stoning and sleeping. I have absolutely no drive nor mood now to even sit at my study desk and do some work. I just don't want to.

But cannot!!!!! I call it a day I die sia. I didn't do extremely well so I have to start studying again. Need the time to come that I will just suddenly feel guilty, switch off the com and go sit at the desk and read. I can't just like decide to be hardworking. Even before promos I slacked till 2 weeks left and I got scared then I mugged. I've never been the disciplined type to be consistent or have the extreme willpower, not to mention patience, required to do a few hours of studying every day.

The pile of GP hw is awaiting me. the essays and compres gawd. I don't even want to start on it. See..before I mug the j1 stuff again I gotta finish all the hw first. I'm too lazy to even touch the hw so how to get past tt. Weight loss plan seems obscure too considering the fact that I can't stop snacking and eating carb. It's like I'm so bored everyday I eat to kill boredom. fml sia

Moses is making us read newspapers everyday and to cut out articles. From sat till today he gave us three lists of 1001 articles to cut, read and paste and I almost died doing Sat's and Sun's today. Now I have to do today's!!!! Oh not forgetting his hw of 7 essays and 7 compres. Wahlao too much man but I know it'll be good for my GP.

Bai, back to cutting & also to do integration.

P.R.O.M.O.T.E.D<3>

OMG today was full of pleasant surprises that I wasn't expecting. And my classflens promoted as well(: I finally get to experience J2 but def not looking forward to the rigor!!

HAHA I just checked nuffnang. eh who search on google for "ong xin ying" oxy, oxy xin ying and oxy amanda smss huh? 'ong xin ying' sounds so weird cos nobody calls me by my chinese name.

k anw I WENT BACK FOR TRAINING YEST unbelievable. I napped then woke up like half hr before training and I took another twenty mins deciding whether to go. Then it started to rain and it was 10 mins before training and I was still home. In the end I was like wtheck just go so I cabbed to sch! Tmr long dist training sia but I will go. 1st time I go for all three trainings manzxz acquiring some discipline finally.